I Am Who I Was Born To Be

第一次

2009-12-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

第一次我用了华文来写部落格。
好多好多话想说，但说不出口。
我想对他说，对不起。
我无法给你幸福。不能实现对你的承诺。
好想对你说，想你，喜欢你。不想和你分开。
但是，我不能。因为我们之间有着一道很高很高的隐形樯。
我努力的爬，在爬时，墙上有刺，我不在乎。
我一直爬，结果弄得一身是伤。我不灰心，一直努力。
以为我可以，但是人会累。
我累了。一身是伤，但是我不能喊痛。
我只能像一只受伤的猫，躲在没人的角落，自己舔着自己的伤口。
我怕了，不想再有下一次。

此时我想哭，却哭不出。我只知道笑。泪不知不觉地落下。
心里好痛。却不能说。

我好想拥有勇气去面对这一切的一切。。。。

Relationships

2009-12-14T14:42:00.002+08:00

For the past few days, I've been through some serious change. I dun wan to think, but things just get into your brain just like that. The only bad thing is that we cant shut off our thoughts like switching on or off a switch. I hate myself. For wad i have become. Despised is a better word to describe.

Cant help but look toward the hp, hoping most miracle can help and all this is just a dream. From my heading i think you should know wad happened to me. I do not wish for this to happen, but it still did. Somehow, i could foresee it, but i didn't expect it to be brought forward. I think both are still hesitating. I've been through e pain, n do not wish so to experience it again. The pain would have been too much to bear. I do not have the confidence to survive another round.

I've decided to lock it up. I don't wish because of something like this to affect me again. Like Davey Jones in POC 2, lock it away because you cant bear it. Lock it away, forever.

Future.

2009-11-06T15:12:00.002+08:00

Today jus attended a talk by our previous senior that went sailing. From wad they say, they had a very gd time n e lecturers also said that after sailing, e most basic class 5 paper, i can get a gd paying job at shipyards. But the first thing is i had to go sailing first for 6 mths min. I wonder what will my family react. Really wonder. Esp grandma. But i really wanna go as its a very gd experience and also, u get to travel around the world. I really wanna go. But, alas, there's alot to consider, like my family. The most impt is them.

I really wanna try to throw down the family chains for once and try to live. But i really dun hav the courage to do so. Will any1 help me or give me the courage to make my decision?

At lunch, syhidah said that i hav a split personality as i change mood like a snap of fingers. Is it? they say one moment i am happy, nt moment i groucy. But it's nt the truth as i jus wan some quiet n peace. I may look groucy but that's my face wad can i do bout it? I think i should keep my temper in check n dun be so short tempered.

Now after the talk today, i'm feeling lost for my future.
Someone help me please???? O.O

Second Last Day At Work (Deep Feelings)

2009-10-14T15:13:00.005+08:00

Today is the 2rd last day here, @ 22 pandan rd. Not really will miss the place but will miss the stairs. You ask me why? Coz that is equal to a track mail to me. make lose so much weight on my legs. haha.

Wondered when will get my pay. This week is my last week here, so hope to get my pay asap so that sat can go shop-until-drop with aunt. I dun noe why, but when i have cash ready at my wallet, i dun feel like buying to much things. But i hav nth in my pocket, suddenly alot of things comes into my range of view. D*** wth la.

what kind of logic is that? Even i dun understand.

Tried to google for some news of my birth mother, but seriously, will anyone post their sad feelings or things that they have been through on the Net? Some will but according to my aunt's memory of her, it appears that my birth mother has only been up to Pri 6. So i dun think she knows how to use the internet. UNLESS she has another family eg her son or daughter who will be kind enough to teach her, otherwise i cant see how she will know how to use the internet.

Sometimes i wondered "What if she married another guy n totally forgot bout me? Is that a possible?" Then i replied to myself, "Of coz pls la, is she really cared or really got think bout me one in like 5 yrs, got wondered bout me, bout how i was doing, how i look like etc she would have like try to just listen around to see if there's any news. " i dunno whether did she try to see me or wad but seriously, sometimes it kinda pisses me off. Where got parent(s) nv miss or think bout the child(ren). Apparently, in my(her) case, it's TOTALLY different. Do she really hate me to the extend that she doesn't even wanna try to look for me?

Some people will say, "No it's nt that she doesn't wan to look, it's jus she hasn't found me yet. Maybe she's looking but she hasn't found u yet." To this kind of people i will say this: "Please, she's nt an idiot, assuming that she's mentally ok, she should know that grandma will nv move away n somemore, given my da's character, the chances of i staying with my grandma is so much higher."

Anyway, back to the main topic of google-ing for my mum. I'm not saying that i wanna look for her, jus wanna know that whether how is she, is she living alright or whether she is in Singapore or oversea etc. That's e kind of person i think i am. I dun wanna acknowledge her (meaning let her know that she's my birth mother n i'm her forgotten daughter) jus wanna see if she's living well. Ever since i can think, i assume that she's really oversea like what my grandma said. But ever since i stumbled upon my parent's divorce papers, i know that grandma was jus trying to protect me so i nv blames her for that. I jus acted like i dun know anything.

Being from a single has its good n bad sides depending on how u view it. For me, having grandma that cook, wash, sew, buy n scold me is the best that i can ever get. (sorry to say, but some mothers aren't a good cook but seriously, my grandma's is e BEST COOK!)

Wondered why all of a sudden this emo? It nth emo, jus sth that i thought for every long. Anyway, i dun giv a crap bout this stuffs, coz i'm so busy with my own life to bother bout others. The only thing is any one who tries to hurt my loved ones, i will kill them n make sure they get twice or thrice or fourth times of what they do to my loved ones.

Loved ones include: Family,

Friends. ;)

Tired

2009-10-10T09:06:00.002+08:00

hey guys,
yst jus went to meiyi's hse for jap lesson. was fun but e pronouncation was werid. i could helpin laughing all the way! ;) todae woke up as usual at 5.30am, was so tired that jus slept in the bus. lucky todae is half day work only. so can go back hm sleep for a hour before meetin meiyi to go bugis. i jus like choosing shoes for my friends but i cant choose clothes for myself. -.- dunno know whether is a habit or natural instincts. haiz.

ltr hope can go bugis get a dress that i can wear to party および (and) school および formal occasions. i hope to get that i like および cant suit me および etc etc.....

brb.

Happy

2009-10-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

today was great!!! Went out Crab dear, watch "Shorts" and had dinner together. The best when we finished our movie. (we had dinner first before the movie, ljs as usual.) He wanted to see the elmo in e ufo catcher. I told him tat i almost caught 2 bears in e ufo catcher in e arcade. So i plea (sa jiao ^^) with him to spare me 2 bucks to try out luck. sadly, e doremon that he wanted we didnt catch. but he did nt wanted to giv up, he went to change another 10 bucks. i was shocked!!! Nv he wanted to play these things. he thought it was a waste of money. Then suddenly change of attitude. So we tried catchin e elmo. after $9, (each time $1) e elmo dropped into the hole!!!! i was so overjoyed!!! really i dun noe how to describe, but it was like winning the first price!!! so e crew changed a new elmo for us n of coz, it belongs to me now. hehe ^^p

he says he will collect frm me soon but this has let me gain an interest in ufo catcher. maybe nxt time, i should ask cly to go bugis e illuma there de ufo catcher. maybe i can catch sth that she wants.....jus jokin.

gtg, tmr still got work. will post e picture of elmo tmr.

cross my heart. ^^p

(those who watched UP should noe wad does 'cross my heart' meant to e main char. )

Work

2009-09-29T17:12:00.002+08:00

I hav clocked out even thought i'm still in e office. Wonder y? Jus waiting for e time to pass coz i'm meetin a person to collect my item that i paid for while i was searchin online. It was a bracelet imported frm Greece but it seriously reminded of e pair of Devil's eyes that charmz gave to me but i lost one side of it. *sad...sobs*

Jus called my dad to see if he's around e area. jus so happenes that he's at Halliburton (srry for wrong spellin) so if he's free to make a long route to pick me up n sent me hm.

Sighs....e problem btw him n ah ma still there, but nt so much i tink. Cm on la, which mother dun luv e son? i tink she's jus stubborn as they say, the bark is worse than e bite. Pretty true for ah ma in this case.

Today was pretty borin as my in-charge is sick n down wif flu. But yst he looks COMPLETELY fine to me lor. =.= i tink he's jus fed up wif certain stuff in e office....anyway, none of my freaking business. GM keep suggesting me to come back aft i graduate frm poly n before i go uni. Ask me to be a full time staff. Nothin is free in this world, so i knew it before he say they will put me at "the front line" dun nid i say, u also noe wad that means rite?

I very politely told him that i like to keep my options open. So he cant really do anything about it....hahaha.

Feelin so bored.....Every1 please update your blog!!! It's been ages since u all update ur blog. *.*

write more later......

Results

2009-09-24T12:05:00.002+08:00

Jus got my results yst, it was nt as wad i expected. I thought tat might be a dist for my maths but i only got an A. Abit disappointed. Somemore the gpa was nt as gd as last sem. But considering the fact that e lecturer gave us the questions to this sem predicting the questions ourselves, i think i did not bad.

My gpa this sem dropped 0.1 conpared to last sem. Acculative gpa only increased by 0.102 points. Sigh....what to do? Work extra extra harder this sem, which is the last sem of the diaploma in SP.

Have been working for 3 weeks here in e attachment place, but this time, is come bac as part-timer. It is around $5 per hr additional allowances of food n transport. So nt so bad, aft minus-ing the money i borrowed frm my grandparents n wad my uncle gave me, shold hav enough for fyp project. S*** the supervisor who seemed so reluctence to giv me bac my money. Da** the teacher la.....wtf. -.=

Aft setting aside some money for the project, i should hav enough to get the new lecture notes/printouts for reopening of sch. It's nt very nice to ask frm grandparents or da for money when u ARE already working. So, gonna depend on myself. ^^

3 more weeks of holidays more to go, time seemed to fly very fast around here. In a blink of an eye, 3 weeks passed. It apply to my sch. So fast, i'm only left with half year to go before my graduation. All elders who was concerned about me kept asking me about my plans for the future. I planned to go uni first before going to work coz in s'pore, u cant survive wifout a freaking piece of a stupid paper. But to get that paper, u nid money to go uni. So hope tat i can apply for the schloarship frm somewhere, n work off the debt.

Srry for nt updating for sooooo long as i had a lot of matters on my mind; Sch; Family; Exams etc. Most stressful of all is the exams n family matters. It's already over, i dun wanna talk about jus in case i start actin like a water pipe again. =.-

Get back l8tr. Gotta work.

Sen-to-sa~~~

2009-07-28T00:42:00.002+08:00

Yst jus went to sentosa to celebrate Sir jacob's b-dae n also cum npcc gathering. Sadly, ot really alot of ppl came. KL, ting en all those so log nv see de nv come. T.T
Had dinner at swensen at vivocity wif all of them. Nt full but nvm la. After tat had ice-cream cake. It's nice....(^^p) After dinner n desert, sir jacob said he wanted to play bean game. o.O Went to the stage area (roof top) n sat down to play. but at 9.30pm, me, chuiyee, weiping n QQ left coz gotta wake up early on e nxt day.

When reach hm, first thing is of coz wash clothes la....otherwise my grandma n complain so much. ^^) then took some bread n eat....waa better lor. otherwise i'll be sleepin wif an empty stomach. -.=

The next mornin i woke up, my face, checks, arms, hands n my thights were sun-burnt! My face had e worst. OMG! hurts like crazy...no choice but to put heaps of aloe gel. Brought some mositurizer to sch to apply. Wonder sun my skin can recover anot....i'll look bad in e photos man! *Weepin like mad...* So whole day ppl in sch keep askin me, 'wad happen felicia? y so red?' I dunno how many times i said 'SENTOSA' to how many ppl. well, cant blame them. i TOTALLY agree wif them that i look like a lobster. (=.=) But alas, due to my forgetfulness, i forgot to apply sun block on my face n arms n legs. i only remembered e back....*wth....*e damaged is done n hopefully, i'll get better by sun.

** things are gg veri smoothly, n F.Y.I, i've alrdy confirmed everything if u guys noe wad i meant. ;) So, meet u all on sun~!

Sch is nt so bad, exceept that all e work tat i've been slackin off has FINALLY caught up wif me. *sobs....* These few i can be veri sure that i'm nt slpin well. Black eye rings.....eye bags....all those tat has nv come n look for me is now knockin on my door.

Gotta slp, otherwise i'll be a lobster who looks like a panda. *laughs...*nite all.

Sick....Stress...

2009-07-09T01:22:00.005+08:00

Down wif flu, sore throat (thankfully i recovered frm it first!) runny nose (heavy drip). No choice still mus go sch. Got bac 2 of e 4 mst papers; was NOT NOT happy at all wif my results. Got shitty marks. then sick. =.= Mus be god punishin me for nt studyin thus this sickness.....Nxt time mus kiasu more, study 1-2 weeks before hand. Cannt last min le, will die sia. If cannt get into uni, will kill myself wif books n writes.

I wonder if i were to write a short story (book form, nt more than 200 pages...)will any1 read? After reading so many fiction books, hands abit itchin to type....but haiz. Still dun e patience to do it somemore my spellin like ****. (=.-) Mus upgrade myself more by reading more n more books!!!!

Anyway, back to main point. FYP goin on smoothly, sch still nt bad(first week nth much) no cca; still kinda in a holiday mood. *Sigh* Mus hurry up n buck up!!! (O.O) Recently crazy bout facebook games waka-waka, pixel ranger n typin manic. Every1 is like: ' hey i beat ur score last nite shall we hav a match later?' etc. (u noe wad i mean rite?) Sadly, i cant seemed to control so no choice but to m.i.a frm facebook for awhile.....

I noe tat i've been mia-ing frm blogger like goodness-noe-when. Srry for e long delay, but due to my recent addiction to tv dramas, i hav been veri lazy to switch on my computer. Been watch 'zhong ji san guo', 'ma zu', 'boys over flowers'. Watch until 3-4-5am in e morning? My best record was 5 am in e morning. Somemore wif my cousins n grandma.
I told Crab n was ticked off like u noe; ****, wtf, wth...etc. (>.>) He dun approve me of watchin tv drams. So i nv told him again. Who would wan to get an earful a second time? During GSS bought quite a lot, like a pair of $60 flats, $50 books, $10 shirt.

Crab argued wif me bout my dressing again. He said i dress like a chin-na n i look like a chin-na. OK, e i-look-like-chin-na i can forgive coz he's nt e only who told me tat. But e i-dress-like chin-na thing i cant forgive him. Wad? Is there sth wrong wif t-shirt n jeans? So all those sicko uncle keep lookin at me n its MY FAULT???? Wth la....ask me to improve my dressin n should learn frm my other 2 other-classmate? I'm nt them n i cant dress so girly. i've tried n totally failed. (-.-). I dun cut out for too girly dressing, so i prefer jackets n shirts n pants n jeans more. i try to avoid dress if i can. Cant help it, its jus nt me. U guys noe how much i hated dress rite? Anyway, i flipped through a couple of seventeen mag n found sth interesting....Leather jackets (^_^) It's turnin cold soon so i tink i should get 1 soon....Cotton on clothes is nt bad...should consider gettin more. Maybe then he'll stop arguing bout my dressin. (-.=)

jus wanna say, miss u guys (my frends of coz!), miss my Dear Crab(even i hate him complanin bout my dressin....)

Dearest Crab, i miss u n hope we can hav more time soon....rmb our promise to watch HP6 on 16th july okies? Luv u lots, Muackz!!!

3rd Year. Final Run.

2009-05-06T22:02:00.003+08:00

Finally, its comin to e last n finally lap of my poly life. Didnt really notice tat in a blink of an eye, 2yrs has passed n my fyp (final .year. project). Crab n me is comin into our 3rd year ani n i had complately NO IDEA wad to giv to him. Ask him straight away wad he wan, he jus say a smple thing is enough. Like movies n dinner. Still craking my head over wad to giv him even though he said simple. Haiz. *shakes*

FYP going very well, we are 2 weeks ahead of schedule. So tat should leave plenty of time for doin the programming. BUT, NONE of my group members are strong in programmin. Wonder how are we gg to programe it. Crab says tat he got learn abit, but i still 'fang xin bu xia'. Hope tat some help will come along when time comes.

I will post some pictures of my fyp project soon once i get e pictures. 1 of my grp mem has a DSL lor. Cool la, use it to take e report pictures. DSL Wan sui!!!! (^_^)

Mus start saving money for clothes. Mus upgrade more since Crab nv complain bout my dressing le. Good sign. Otherwise he'll complain like old woman. +.=

Lastly, i jus wanna say:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers on earth

n

HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY to my Dearest Crab. Love u lots n, muackz. ^^

Changes. Delications.

2009-04-16T13:01:00.003+08:00

So fast, 7 weeks jus pass like that. Itp is comin to an end with only one and a half day more. I wondered how sch will be like? Has every1 changed? No, Every1 has changed, it's jus a matter of how big or how small the change has been. It's e truth.

The cleaning came by today, n i told her it's my last time i'm seeing her. We talked a little about studies n sch fees, n she mentioned that her daughter has alrdy a plan to be a lawyer. She said that her daughter wanted to buy houses, cars n give her n her husband money to enjoy thmselves. I wondered how old her daughter is; my guess was 15-16. She told me her daughter is 14 tis year. She said her daughter is quiet, n very mature in her thinking. I wondered sliently whether will her daughter do jus as she say now as she moves towards her future?

Everybody changes. Then have i changed too? As i heard she said her daughter was quite, i suddenly remebered about the remarks i saw in my report book during my secondary school times. My first 2 years began like this: 'Felicia is a helpful and active girl.' But, as i moved on to my third n last year, it was this: 'Felicia is a quiet and respectful girl.' Even as i tried to deny, i HAD changed. Whether is for the good or for the better, i cannot conment.

I knew only of one thing. That third n last year of my secondary sch life was my most peaceful period. Not really much things to consider, no worries.

As i move on, more things came into my life n it began to get more colourful as compared to the last 2 years of sec sch. I got a new impt person, new things to learn n more things to worry. I couldnt control n thus, i lost my balance. However, time allow me to learn. My life soon was balanced again n it has been tis way since.

After all this, i was wanna say thanks to all my close friends: LiYan, BeeTing, MeiMan, Meiyi, Jass, Sherwin. And also, my dearest Crab. Thank you ALL for tolerating me, being wif me, listening to all my crap, n most impt, lettin me BE myself n also, keepin my mind in one piece.
Really, Thank You.

ITP

2009-03-11T10:38:00.002+08:00

2nd week of ITP le. . . Work is increasin n of course. Tis is nt a bad place after all. The uncles (mentors) r all veri helpful, willing to teach you anything. Like u ask them was is tat thing, they will tell u everything frm wad is it made of to e purpose of tat thing. So mus feel 感动.

Yst met Liyan, M.Y n Sherwin in e nite. M.Y n cly havin dinner. i only got a cup of teah-bing. No choice ma, mus save save save! ^^

This week got alot of programmes, Sat gg IT fair, Sun attending Crab's elder sis's wedding in e noon, work eg. Now the most troublesome thing is wad to wear to crab's sis's wedding. Crab is wearin sth brown, so mus find sth brown to wear. My original brown one so low cut, how to wer la. Somemore, e venue is at shangri-la hotel lor. -.- I also dunno how.

Tis mth i think i might overspent my salary. Buy tis, buy that, all my money fly fly fly!!! >.<

现在，我在用公司的电脑来打华文字！ =）好有趣喔！；）

Dearest Crab, hope your it is going on smoothly, all e best n i'll see u on sun! ;)

ITP: Day one

2009-03-02T22:26:00.004+08:00

Exams jus finished nt long ago, now itp started.

Got a few really big shock tis morning when i reached my workplace. Looked so empty la.
._. Then my supervisor showed me around which took less then 10 mins. This shows how small e place is. wth. That's shock one.

My supervisor then told me that i'm e receptionist for ther company. Now still got nth to do, so relax. When project finish, then do photocopyin n filing. So now jus relax. BUT, there's really N.O.T.H.I.N.G for me to do. So e place not only look empty. It is actualy empty. So many cabinate empty. That's shock two.

Then i spent e day today by exploring e place which took me less than 15 mins. (maybe lesser) Then walked around if there's anything i could do. Nothing at all. So went 2nd level to explore. Then GM saw me n lend me a copy of wad he did. So for the rest of the afternoon, i jus sat down there readin e manual until 4. GM say today first day, can go earlier. But e eariler abit too early. 1 HOUR be4 offically time out. That's e finally shock.

Then no choice but to go clementi walk walk. Went to look for my log book's cover, bought one for my Crab of course. He finish at 4.30 pm but his day was so so so so much more interesting! He told me that he went to walk around wif e quite high in-charge, then he was given a PASS n a FREE UNIFORM (boiler suit of course) ! He told me that there's different colours for different ranking. Workers= blue, orange, dark blue etc. More Educated workers= White n others etc. He told he's gettin e white one which means he's a officer's assistance. So Cool La. T.T

Seriously feel like cryin. My lecturer called me (aka LO) n asked how's my day. Told him e truth of course la. wad to do. zzz. I aked him whethercan transfer to main office anot. Coz seriously sayin, i cant stand another day of doin nothin in e ****** nobody office. I'll go crazy de!!!

Tmr still nid to wake up at 5 to go to work. Today late by 5 mins. SAd. Hope i can be transfered asap.
Will update more soon.

Finally~

2009-02-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

1 dwn, 3 to go.
finallye 3hr long nite paper is done.....3 more paper.
one more nite paper, one morning paper n lastly one afternoon paper.
sianz, Nite paper makes me all crappy.

Today is weird la, morning actually wantin to reach sch at 11 de, in e end happen alot of things, thus reach sch at 1430. Played cards frm 1530 to 1700, until see e cards also sian. Haiz. Shouldnt come to sch so eearly.

Jus reached hm, e relief of finishin e 3hr paper is really shiok....now tonight can finally rest abit.
tmr still nid to study more calculations. Haiz. Lucky e teacher very knid, giv us de 4 questions tat cost 80marks. Study e 4 questions=an A in e subject. haha....

Gd luk to me....n also to all my other gals who is havin projects/assignments/exams etc....
;)

Take Care of Yourself myDear Crab, i miss u lots n when attachment comes, i'll miss u even more....
Luv u lots~ MUACKZ!!! (**x)

Revisions....

2009-02-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

weird rite.....ppl all studyin i'm here bloggin -.-
no la, jus needed a break frm all e studyin tat i've done during e day...full 3 hrs of physics calculations; lunch then another 3hrs of calculations n theory. Even robot also nid to rest frm iput of info la...(maybe not)
Anyway, emac study until ok ok le, left all e meroizein of e formulaes n some theory. MEK, Electronics n Ship Stab haven touch yet. *faints* omg la. Dunno how am i gg to survive e upcomin exams? Every1 one busy wif exams n revisions n projects, by e end of e exam n projects periods for polys, we all will be like so shack...hope that be4 e ITP, all of us can go for a break n relax ourselves....replenish all our energy mentally n physically.....
Tmr n next week will be spent studyin until late into e day so i wouldnt hav time or energy to update me blog.

See you 2 weeks ltr....

Dearest, Valentine is tis sat, even though u hav to work, i jus wanna say I LOVE YOU. =)

exams...

2009-02-09T17:32:00.002+08:00

Now still in sch, waiting to meet Crab ltr at his workplace. Started studyin today, relize tat ALOT of things dun noe or forget liao. Damn sad. Spent a freaky 3 hrs doin only 3 questions lor. wtf.
When reach hm, mus reallli spend a few hrs revise. Sad la, next tue 3hr pp n somemore, in e night de. wth. -.-

Feelin so damn stressed n pissed off wif myself, i hope by e time i get hm, e feelin will disappear by itself otherwise i'll go abit siao siao tonite. hehe....

Update more soon....

Coming....CNY!

2009-01-25T11:50:00.002+08:00

CNY comin, bought a new dress, got a new cap as a belated b-dae gift frm my aunt n cousin Charmz (my thanks! ;)), i got pretty prepared for CNY. hehe....

Anyway, today is e 30th day, acccordin to e chinese calander, it's de last day of e year. There's tis thing called 'shou sui' on e last dae of e year. Your noe rite....Children stay up late so tat their parents will live long stuff like tat. I find it weird, but seein tat my dad do tat every year without fail, i've decided to do e same. Hope my dad's n grandparents' life will extend abit longer.....Haha...

CLY recently jus load some games n programmesfor me, i can spend today n tmr to occupy myself wif.

ITP (aka Industrial Training Programme; also known as Work Attachment in some places) is comin however, sadly to say, my sch still short of places to give everyone a place. Kinda worried...FYP (aka Final Year Project) also comin soon, everybody now are snatchin all those people that are good....

There's tis guy seriously **** coz he took all e veri good ones. Then now due to some conflicts in his previous grp, his grp broke up. After sawin Crab's idea, he wanted to join us. (naturally, me n Crab one grp de...haha.) Crab asked his other teammate n me. I put my leg down wif a firm no. So that's all....

Some people are really assholes in disguies....cannt take them in one.

Dun think bout e sad n unhappy things, look forward to CNY n many many ANG BAOS!!!!! muhahaha

Dearest Crab, our 3rd year anni comin soon....hope to care for u in e comin year...Muackzs!!! ("x)

New Year's Update

2009-01-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Funny huh....new year came. Now it's alrdy 6 jan 09. haiz, 1st jan realli lazy to blog. Jus stayed at hm to watch tv n stuff. These few days were nt bad, sch was okok but kinda stressed when suddenly every lecturer is askin u for their hw. Haha....i didnt realli studied durin e holis, it was jus going out to hav fun, attendin bbqs n b-dae parties. Didnt realli remembered e hws. Nid to get a mini organiser, otherwise i'll keep missin out on e hw. Sian....

Crab n me seemed to be gettin better n ive taken his advice on sth.....seemed like realli works, so i should start being nicer to him.....(^_^)

Body is really down coz ive been havin blocked nose for a few days liao n e water like spoiled tap like tat, cant close it tight.

CNY is coming n i wan new clothes!!!!! (>_<) Sadly, new clothes=more money. So no money, no talk. The Far East Plaza aka FEP got a shop tat sell quite nice dress n bad, maybe i should go there walk walk huh.....but nvm. When got de money first ba. Anyway, gg out to watch twilight tmr wif my cousin. Ive been wantin to watch tis but sadly, crab doesnt hav e time n money. So he's busy makin money, money, money now. Thurs to sat almost all poly open hse, MY duty on fri, n i on duty on sat. Ok la coz got CCA point so i dun realli mind anyway. Also sit there nt realli alot of things to do, i also there slack n make frends.....
gtg, tmr early lessons *&*^%. Nites guys....

Merry Xmas!!! plus updates!

2008-12-25T11:46:00.000+08:00

Yos ppl! MERRY CHIRSTMAS to all !!!! Recently too busy to make any updates on many things...my b-dae celebrations, me n my gals own xmas celebration etc. anywayys...gg to update now!

Mybirdathday celebrations @ sentosa

grp pic together

waiting for e tram

on e skyride

me n my ride friends

finish le!

preparin for ludge

finish le!...again.

MM swimmin...
Anyway got aston but sad i dun e pic to put. haha. Oh i forgot...Presents.

kitty frm CLY. Veri touched thks. Book frm them..^^ (twilight)

Well that's all for my birthday celebration wif e gals.

My celebration wif Crab was nice...he compiled one CD of e songs that i like n wraped it nicely for me....n also a rose. Haha..tradition of him to giv me a rose. Im listennin to my mp3 coz i cant get enough of e songs! So friends dun say i emo! :)

Yst went to jacob's party (BBQ) it's e few usual WP,KL,aiping, chuiyee, MY,CLY, lemin. the surprise one was siti! i didnt noe tat she'll come...anyway i got a mug frm e xmas exchange n a box of my fav chocolates in a surprise lucky draw. Hmmm nt huh...i bought a waterbottle for e xchange n CLY got it. Weird huh....nvm.

Merry Xmas n Happy holidays every1!

Tri's B-dae

2008-12-16T14:25:00.000+08:00

Oh ya, i forgot. Went for tri's b-dae on 14th dec...veri interestin. Postin pics tat i took e other day...

B-dae gal!

her condo...

haha make fun of CLY

Us wif b-dae gal

grp pic

DJ (her cousins)

Other duo pics

her veri shy neighbour (cute gal)

happening....

before,after.

cake. (frm sweet secerts, yohourt ice-cream)
performance frm her relatives n cadets.

then tri join in e fun!

followed by le min.....-.-

Well that's all. Rest all unglam de...wahahaha.

;)

2008-12-16T14:12:00.000+08:00

Counting down to my b-dae (6 more)

Went swimming wif bee n my family. Seriously la...look like a fool out there. Dun realli noe/rmb how to. Bee cool la...swim from one end to e other. (e longer end) I only managed the shorter end only. Slowly...mus go more often.
Read bout wad happen to MY durin her online shoppin.....sad to say, suping was rite. U realli hav to be pissed off n angry/fierce to get your rights/money. jus take it as lesson learned ba...i cant complain, i nv buy coz im like nid to try be4 i could buy. Ltr cannt wear die=waste money. haiz....
Helpin Bee ltr to do some shoppin for her party/gatherin, i wonder who's gg. Im tryin to lose some weight n gain some colours (skin colour) be4 sch reopens one e 28th dec.

Xmas is drawing near, so is e end of 2008. Tis year has been wonderful, sad, happy n many other things....It also means tat im older by 1 yr. Well, blog again soon....cya guys ltr.

New Things....

2008-12-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

Bought a white shelf for my cousins 2 days ago, packin e shelf for them. And grandma bought me 2 lime-green pillows (lime-greenn roxs! ;) ) then a green strips rug n a small beside-bed-shelf. (dunno wad is that actual name, jus write it's function...hehe) Now my rm is cozy wif e rug n pillows....make me feel so lazy to go out also. Haha...

They got ALOT of rubbish la, dunno wad they wan or dun wan....their mum won i-bet so she gave us a treat at a steamboat shop somewhere near lavander mrt there....("yu tou lu" if u say in chinese version) 4 dish, 1 soup. me n my grandma were so so full la....haiz the kids cant eat much and then still order so much. seriously.....

Ltr meetin MM, CLY, Gab, WeiPing n Bee to go to tri's party at sengkang there. Still not veri sure bout e dress code....aiya, hack care la. recently become lazy to dress up...jus a pair of jeans n t-shirt will do. :P

Next wk is filled wif activites n gatherings n party! 16th gg to Bee's, 19th for my B-dae celebration, 20th home celebration wif my family, 21th offical celebration wif Crab. Wonder wad surprises im gg to receive this comin celebrations. Cant wait for it to come...hehehe ^_^

Will update more ltr or nxt day....muwahaha ;)

B.o.r.e.d.

2008-12-09T12:38:00.000+08:00

Who's the person that tagged you? A: JasmineK
Relationship between you and her? A: Good Friends
Three impressions of her? A: outspoken, black eyeliner n long hair? >.>
If she becomes your enemy, you will? A: Erm…. >.>?
What will you say to the person you like very much? A: Ah…..go quiet
Characteristic i like about myself? A: I luv bks like crazy… ^^
Characteristic i hate about myself? A: Rush n airhead n nv tink be4 doin anything
For the person whom you hate, you say? A: Dun care bout them
What do people feel about you? A: No idea. I nt them
Your crush? A: Got bf le ^^
Pass this to 10 people.1. Hirman 2. gab 3. jos4 . Charlez 5. weiping 6. awi 7. sebastian 8. weihan 9. zijie 10. jun xuan
If 5 & 7 were together? A: Erm I dunno.
What colour does 9 like? A: black I guess…
Say something about 8: A: policeman.
Who is 2? A: squadmate cum sec schmate
Talk about 3: A: my cousin, one of my closest sister, luvs fashion lot
Who's the sexiest among all 10? A: all the same to me…
What colour does 4 like? A: blue/green? No idea…
Is 4 single? A: nope
Your relationship with 1? A: classmates in poly
Are 5 & 6 best friends? A: no they dunno each other.
9's surname? A: Lim
7's nickname? A: Sabey (pronounced as SA-bii)
Say something to 8. A: Yes Sir! =]
Say something to help 9. A: Wad for?
Who does 1 admire? A: His gf.
Where does 1 live? A: Singapore.
10 of them know who you like? A: Some
Say something to 6 when you see him/her. A: oi awi!
10's spouse? A: in poly. No idea who…. >.>

Finally finish e quiz JK tagged me.....
startin to fa mei at hm le.....dunno wad to do. Yst jus went TM (tampiness mall) to do some nxt-yr-shoppin wif grandma. she's my money =) bought 2 pair of jeans frm levis sign, cheap lor....2 pair for 99.90. compared to each pair 100++. -.-
couldnt find e top that we saw at lot 1 . :-( haiz.
so bored at hm dunno wad to do.
maybe i should try makin cookie since im so free. . . .
see how ba. 11 days more to bein eighteen....countin down. wonderin wad the gals are doin....haha lookin forward to it! ;) Aft 11+ more days can finally go register to BTT le. still cant decide wad to get. bike or car? Car can transport my family, bike only me n 1 more ppl. still long time la.....
plannin to get swimsuit=swimming=healthy tan colour. mus hurry up....^^

brb soon.....

Finally~ Holidays!

2008-12-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally holidays come! ...This also means no work=no money. Wahaha...dun care coz birthday tis mth...muwahaa. Evil lor...

Exams jus finished, last paper at 10, finished at 11.30. freedom lai lor.....Ltr 4.30 meeting gals to go Chui Yee's birthday celebration; bbq near her house. Thought of buyin a ps3 coz one of my classmate plannin to ask alot of ppl buy then ask uncle for discount. Should i or Slould i not? E gutiar hero game set so attractive.....haiz. wait until later ba....
X'mas comin soon, gotta shop for presents; time to take out my savings le..... T.T
Gals we meetin on 20th to celebrate x'mas dun forget wor! And also jacob's de!

Recently alot happen in e family, wif my dad n his galfrend. Haiz. Dun really care coz he asked me n ah ma to stay out of his bussiness. As long as it doesnt really affect me, i wouldnt really bother.
When our parents aer injured, we as e children mus do our best in help them in wadever ways we can. Not to play com games everytime we get hm or play psp where-ever we go. It's abit too much. If u noe tat u're not contributing enough, then do sth bout it. Dun jus sit down there n complain, solutions wont drop from heaven and e problem is still there. I seriously dun understand y since u noe there's a problem, n u didnt solve it. only one word to describe that: LAZY! Hope that he'll take action soon or else suffer my lectures.....

Crab n me like havin more fights then usual tis week....maybe due to the stress tat is building up inside both of us? O.O.... Seriously lor, sometimes is he started it...even though i noe it both of our fault.... >_<

Anyway, lookin forward to being eighteen soon (10++ days more...) receive all of my special presents and of course. " the chance of finally able to register for BTT" ....muwahahahahahaha

(^o^) Evil! ~

Grayish Wed...

2008-11-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

Sch still e same, but todae nt bad. Accompany Crab to town area to get his shoes. Nt bad la, but nid some time to get use to e colour. Galfriends' birthday comin means mus save save save! Recently spent like less than $5 perday. Can save half lor...can finally buy my contacts!
CSW lecturer say got interview, gals wear either skirt or pants. Pants mus go wif jacket. But sad ah, i got pants, no jacket. So plannin to buy one lor....mus suai qi one. haha. Jus jokin la. Preparing portfolio for e interview test still got 2 weeks more, can man man lai...
Recently playin DJ mix too much le in e end homwork all delayed. Lucky i can tahan late night work. Otherwise sure die. Plannin to change half of my wardroble to abit more office clothes. Crab keep grumblin tat i keep dressin like kids (secondary kids). Imean wad's wrong wif cute tshirts n jeans n shorts? cannt meh? look like kid meh? Seriously hor.....he also de same wad.
(-_-)
One mth plus more to 18th n MY's n LY's eighteen is comin le....^^ finally. aft them is me le....lookin forward, coz X'mas coming! Gotta get X'mas presents, birthday presents n clothes!!

I WANNA GO ORCHARD TO WALK N SHOP!!! >_< color="#ff0000" size="1">
Crab can u dun every time throw your temper at me? it's nt my fault k.....jus tell me nicely tat u needed space to time-out i'll u giv de wad. Flare at me for wad? >_>

sad day....

2008-10-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

tue bad luk started.....lost my pouch, C.K de lor!!! wth!!! (>.o) ( hope person who took it cannt shit for an entire week!!! then he/she cannt pee for a week also! kana infection!...) kind off evil lor...but who ask e person to take? i also dun care....
Bad thing is losing e pouch, others ask me leh:
friend a: huh then inside e thing how?
me: i dun really care coz not really very impt.
f: wah your ezlink leh, somemore got mastercard. Not scared tat kana ppl use arh?
m: okok la, inside also not enough money for he'she to swipe....hehe.

lame rite? other ppl lose e wallet is xin tong bout e contents inside, i xin tong e wallet instead. haha...tat was a gift frm one of my papa's frend...not very close la, but was a teacher to me. so i kindoff like e pouch alot.

then when i wanted to make a police report, e lady at e counter of e NDP say not really a nid. In e end, today went to coz sch say if no report, no new admin card. sian la....mus purposely walk there again. lazy lor so far. but wad to do.....then e lady today very nice, nt like tat wed de....papa cancel e card n i nid to go bouna vista there make a new ezlink. Haiz so ma fan. wad to do..blame meself for losing it lor....

school still nt bad la...2nd week at last started lessons le....e ship stab lecturer ah, dam* leh-chech la...one slide can take bout 5 mins to explain...still down there amost sleepin lor. Somemore e class so big. bout 90++ ppl in one big lecture theater lor. Cant concentrate at all. Recently alot of lecturers resign....even one of my fav lecturer also resigning after this sem. 15k per mth lor! he say SP only 6k per mth...his aim is to make 5M be4 he retire at 55. but he can la...wk exp so gd...

last nite went to meet e gals...finally all of us are hav dinner together. Normally is one us couldn't make it [mainly is me la! (:P) ] annyway, went to n&b for dessert then i fell down. play to engrossed le....*shake head* they were shocked la....ask me ok anot. thks for your concern, im ok le. jus a few scratches here n there....lucky got learn first-aid, can treat myself.

now doin "communication skills for work" homewk...researchin for jobs online....quite interestin.....

update more soon~

Dearest Crab, srry for nt being concerned in your studies...i assumed tat u r coping ok until adrain told me tat he saw u sitting in e library tryin to do your maths. Upon hearin tat, i feel so guilty la...some more he say in a sacarsite way tat wad kind of gf are u....jus wanna say srry tat i neglected u in your studies....luv u lots always... (>_<)

sch reopening....

2008-10-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

Sch reopening le, kinda miss sch after so long at home rottin.....bought new clothes n bottoms for new semester. Lookin forward to a new start! ;)

My next aim is saving enough money for:

- Contact lenses

-O.K sunglasses

-a shirt @ punkstar

-a cat necklace (pic later)

-a pair of sandles

-a holiday trip wif Crab

-a holiday trip wif my girlfriend

A lot sia...

hahaha...hope crab will get me one of these ( jus joking!) Wonder wad's wif bee n e rest....like no news. Mus be busy wif their things i suppose.....i wanna watch movie hose bunny! Heard tat it's pretty funny, any1 interested?

Felix the cat. . . . . meow! ^^

Dear i noe u hav problems wif ya modules, dun lose hope coz everything will turn out fine....luves u lots!

Muackz (**x)

bac online....

2008-09-16T17:37:00.000+08:00

seriously, last time i blogged is like..?? 2 weeks ago? hooo...anyway updates:
-> li yan came bac, bought us d.i.y dolls, n tie dan (seasoned quill egss?) n a coin pouch.
* i finished liao...update photo l8tr...
-> wed 17 sept results come out
* hope can pass wif okok results...><
-> dad dun allow me to work ( wad he did himself noe e best. -.=)

so mos of e things still okok la....hoping can go overseas soon.... ("o)
rottin to death soon if i dun find sth to do...

during jas birthday celebration sth very sao xing happened, now i still dunno wad happened. Jus hope tat everything will turn out fine....

P.S jus wanna tell my Dear Dear tat i miss him alot n i'll be wif him whenever he nids me...luv u lots..
Muackz! (**x)

Back frm exams!

2008-08-30T15:39:00.000+08:00

hey ppls jus finish exams yst Wow finally can relax le. Past few days studying like crazy sia, sleepin at 1-3am haha. Crab finshed a day eariler, he dun nid to take instru but he taking next sems haiz long story.
anyway, we met up and went to celebrate ("p). He's workin for e next 1 mth holis. Will be like whole mth nv see him, gg to miss him. But i found a job, gg to interview on mon. If can, i'll ask bee n MY to go.
During holis gonna fast too, even though it's nt together wif him. So i will fast to prove that n at e same time, can slim down abit hehe.
cly jus went taiwan, miss her too pray that she has a safe trip n buy things bac.
wanna work to get bit of pocket money, can buy a bit of clothing n lots of birthday present. Not to mention the Xmas also. So start saving! Besides, still got BTT wanna take, buy bike, n lots lots more! so really mus start saving n workinn~~ =]
oh one more thing. srry tat i didnt update for so long, kinda busy wif studyin of exams!

Note to gals: Before poly reopens, wanna go walk walk n buy things? (^_^)

Thanks Dear for everthing...Gonna miss u when u're workin n take care...love u lots, Muackz! ("x)

i'm very sorry

2008-08-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i want to applogise to everyone, (li yan, mei man, mei yi, bee ting n jas). I should not have lost my temper at you guys by pushing the blame to you all as it is not your fault. Secondly, to bee ting. I should not have say shitty things to you. Lastly, to mei man. Please dun feel bad bout e delay in time. It is my fault that i did not control my temper n also e shitty reataurant did not have any NETS payment. I'm srry to u guys n i promise to exercise more self-control in e future n srry for making a celebration to a tense and awkward moment.

Thank you to li yan as u offered to walk me home despite being tired. I really apperciate it. Also, a thank you to u guys that today was a happy celebration in the morning n afternoon.

Srry again. And...
THANK YOU.

Long Long time ago.....

2008-07-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

Long Long time ago, i jus wanted a exciting life.

But now, i jus wanna relax n enjoy my life now....many things in e world are jus possesions. Things that are truly vauable is friendship n family ties. I thank God for giving me such a wonderful family and great friends ( lili, bee, mm, m.y n jas). Besides, i also wanna thank God for allowing me to know Crab....he was a joy and also a pain in my ass (sometimes! HeHe...)

Received Np instructor tee today, /it is so big wor!!!!! Weiping still say cutting very small etc etc....wth lor....gonna kill him next time i see him.... ("...)

MM told us bout tis advertisment that is made using mechinsim of e car.....it so cool lor...e creators mus hav tried countless times....click on e link:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=g2VCfOC69jc
seriously it's so damn cool lor.....

MMIT project still stuck, tryin to complete my research by next week, otherwise: DIE!!!!
Alot of people's birthdays are coming, but im broke .... T_T omg mus save, save save!

Dearest, know u r broke, i'll try to help u save money by walking a few bus stop down as i noe u r using adult fare.....
Love u lots...Muackz! (**x)....

bored.....bored.

2008-07-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

Now in sch, havin CAD now.
suddenly resolved to save my money to buy clothes.
MNG n others.....mus sort out my wardrobe b4 3rd yr....
sian...

found out that got alot of things still left in e world for us to enjoy.
dun despair though....

lame....
b-o-r-i-n-g. .... . .. . . . .

emo....

2008-07-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

today feelin VERY, EXTREMLY, EXTRA moody...
y is it that when my life seemed perfect, some people jus wanna destory it?
everything was in balance, i jus balanced it onli then people destory it; spoil my mood for the rest of the day and the day after it. yst happened sth, made me freaky pissed n hurted.
e emotions lasted until today, now still emo-ing.
Last nite was e worst. seriously. better not to mention. >.>

i mus find my courage n go on...face e damned problems. That's life, isn't it?

Courage.....(Crab's givin me e support...)

But first mus destress. Ltr find book to read throughout e nite or read online manga all nite.

todae realli sux.....so was yst,
hope tat tmr will be better....
Dearest Crab, i love u, thank you for listening to me.....

Sick....

2008-07-05T13:29:00.000+08:00

today is a wonderful day, but to me, it's another day of having to suffer sore throat.
been having sore throat for 2 days.....i rather hav fever or other things than sore throat. i hate sore throat e most.

Yesterday, planning to go hm early, so ps Crab n my gals (sorrie i couldn't go Bandout! ><).
But instead i picked up a pink IC. Seriously hor, i wasn't so lucky wif 4d! Acutally wanted to giv bus uncle, but forget. by e time i remember, bus gone liao. Also forget to take down vehicle number. Damn.....when u sick n feelin blur, u really become very retarded. So went to SNPC (serangoon neighbourhood police centre) to make a report. Very nervous, first time inside there. But somehow ok. E atmosphere inside there like weird weird de..... =.-

Anyway ah ma was very nice, made some chestnut water for me n cooked porridge for me.....^_^ blissful wor!

update ltr....

Thanks Dear for taking care of me while i was not feeling well....i noe u covered me with your jacket when u saw me asleep....
i love u...Muackz! (**x)

Back....

2008-06-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

Todae met gals out for lunch, it's been ages since we've had lunch together. after lunch went bee's hse to play mini uno stacko except that it's made of wood n it's at least half a size smaller than uno stacko. it's MM's.....she brought bac frm BK i tink,....

Kinda sad actually, worried bout results, dun tink i'll do very well, but should be able to pass....T_T...
lost marks here n there, careless mistake...-.=

Pa say no to me workin, wanted me focused on studies, worried for his health, he's like workin both day n nite shift, should get sleep n rest whenever he can. Sorta understand y he works so hard, seriously he should care more bout his health. Wanted to help him but results.....=.= *sigh* next test gonna bring everything out; i dun care le.

Exams finally over, been slackin these 2 days, giv my brain a break; but assignments haven really finish yet left TFAM, (tanker familiarization); nid to work out the solutions for maths for Crab; one more report to finsh....
Damn....wish i got use my own private savings instead of pa's money....****! >.>....

NP shirt nid money...gotta cough out e $14 somehow...should'n hav bought 2 pairs of jeans.....damn...

anyway, gotta finish up report...
bb.

feeling kinda down tonite, wish could help but like e idoms says: xin you li er li bu zu.
haiz...
love u my dear Crab....

Shopping....

2008-06-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

Arggg...went shopping wif grandma n somehow my aunt tagged along.
finally got my Levis' jeans n converse shoes...da gonna kill me, i used his card shua shua shua, haven pay all e bills yet wor! >< (buy 2 then got discount off second pair! nyway couldn't resist got 2 instead!) Walk a few step then saw converse shop, safe e trouble of going to bishan branch of converse. Got my shoes there, sadly no discount. T_T

Total spend bout $300!!!!!! Wow, really until X'mas comes, i certainly won't be buyin anything.....my baag,,,, will any kind hearted person get a bag for my birthday? *winks*

jus joking....

Jeans still at shop, sent for alteration for $2 each, tue gg AMK again to collect.

Exams on mon, double paper on tue, wed off, Thur Seamanshiop theory, Fri Athm, then......END OF EXAMS!!!!!! weehh lookin forward to that though...can go galan galan n relax wif Crab...both of us are cranky lately due to exam stress ( he's crakier than me, he've got work stress n lack of sleep too!)

happy today, got my shoes, my jeans; aiming for a bag next!....to be continued.

School...

2008-06-13T15:22:00.001+08:00

Crab finally came bac! ><>
Annywaay....he didnt buy me anything.... (he said tat he bought sth for me but i still haven receive yet! ["p])
But his mum was very nice, she got a pair of billabong slippers for me....(will update e pic of e slippers l8r....)
Hammy went back home, frm wad i heard frm Crab, hammy's very happy to be hm...of coz la, after giving me 2 bites, both of my cousins one bite each. T_T.....

Still haven study for exams, seems tat i cant really study wif Crab. But wad to do...mus accompany him lor.... i wonder how MY's bf looks like. Heard frm bee tat li yan seen him in person before.....excited wor! Now left li yan...mus ask her go match-makin....wahahaha (jus jokin gal...dun take it to heart!)

Now in sch, bloggin, studyin?, dunno doin wadever....update l8tr....

Another Day....

2008-06-10T16:41:00.000+08:00

It's another boring day at hm...
nth to do except eat n sleep, by e time Crab comes bac, he'll see a pig wearing my clothes! (dun wanna imagine it...too horible...)
mus hav e motivation to go runnin in e mornin!!! (T_T i doubt i'll..)

feelin emo today..guess cant stay at hm doin nth everyday. Will turn into emo freak. (eg. ME.)
Pa dun wan me go out say wad MINDS cafe at clark quay wad very complicated....LOL. Now times chage le wor, in e past it USED to be but now, it's becomin more like hip n trendy place for ppl to relax n enjoy times wif their friends or family. *shake*.....those kind of complicated place is now zouk, MOS, St james power station. Where got clark quay....zzz. He should really go out n see e night life now, since he got so much time at hm wif aunty susan. They should both go out n see for themselves. I noe dad is busy workin every nite but seriously, doesnt mean that i hav to change myself to suit their expecations? Come on.....

Sometimes seriously, i tink my dad abit overly propective. i noe being e only kid parents wouldnt want any harm to come to me but haiz....dad is like callin hm everyday....i had a funny idea that he's using the excuse of askin bout grandma to 'make sure' tat im at hm. Jus wished tat i was entirely wrong....

Sisters all going to MINDS, me rottin infront of my com...emo..

emo....

emo...

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emo.

Hammy: Day02

2008-06-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hammy's second day here....Grandpa conplain bout hammy smell like urine...poor hammy honestly he dun smell at all, he's a clever n clean rodent! ^^ But, grandpa put his leg down so hammy will hav to stay in my rm while gramps is at hm....not a problem since i like him. Here are more pics of hammy how he actually looks like....

Hammy in his toliet....he's toliet trained! O.O

He's sleepin...isit he cute? >.<

Munch munch....Carrots n cornflakes rox!.....~
Hammy's bro n sister be4 he was bought....
i didnt noe tat Crab had tis pic until i saw it in his hp some time ago...it was when both of us were at bishan celebrating his birthday. both of us shared e cost of hammy. Btw, Hammy is a white drawf. sth like tat, cant rmb though will ask Crab when he comes bac...

Crab's away for e second day today, wonder wad is he doin now....maybe havin fun wif...(u noe wad i mean...) but i trust him he wont do tat. COMPLETE FAITH IN HIM!!!!! Anyway, hope he come bac soon....miss him lots...><

Dearest Crab, miss u lots today...hammy is fine wif him althought gramps dont really like him but as his stand-in-master i'll NEVER allow any1 to harm him.dun worry dear...come back soon...muackz!

Holidays....

2008-06-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today got Crab's hamster, hammy here at my house. Went to get it frm him, aft tat went hm by cab. His mum asked me water her plants for her on alternate days. Gotta drop by on mon to water her plants though...Here r some pic of Hammy...

This is his tank...quite big for one hamster....

The amt of food Crab gave me for hammy.....

he's hidding in his toilet roll....(srry forget to turn e pic!)

Actually hammy was 6 mths old when i bought him for Crab's bird-day...so hammy turn one n a half aft tis may....will take more pics of hammy up close....he's jus camera shy... =p

Anyway, Crab went to Bali today n he's gonna be away for 6 days! Lucky his elder sis payin for all.....(wish i had 1 sis like his...T_T). I wondered what is he gonna bring me when he comes bac....hehehe

Bout lunch wif my friends today, srry tat i had to suddenly cancel on u guys....so srry. by the time i brought hammy home it was already 2 plus... >.<>

Exams are in 3 weeks time n i haven even really study yet! (flip here flip there onli....) Like tat i'm gg to fail sooner or later....mus ganbatten wor! Mus get at least 3 n above.......

tat's all for today.....more on hammy tml....

Dear...come bac quickly ok....miss u lots but hav fun...nite. Muackz! ("x)....

Updates...

2008-06-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

yoyo finally bac aft long time......

afternoon went to beach rd to get his bike stickers printed, not much ppl at first but at around 4 plus ppl start comin in. Saw e lady there startin to stress....kinda cool coz first time saw how they use software to customise e stickers' design n print out....maybe i should hav my name done when get my own helmet....then when to get his bike spring etc.

went to Crab's elder sister's BBQ by taxi around 5 plus, not many ppl turned up but okok la. had a 4 corn, drop 1 on e floor (T_T), 1 sweet potato, 2 servings of potato salad, 1 serving of green salad (dun really like it though....) and a few sticks of satay. Kept clear from mutton but kinda like e stingray tasted e best, but i lazy to take so keep kapo-ing frm Crab. He went to get more....wahahaha =].

forgot to take pics of me and him together...=( but in future i will rmb, and post lots n lots of us!

came bac hm in taxi again ( paid half, cant hav him payin all e time....>.>)

full, jus bathed n updated my blog. will put in pics nxt time.....

tata for today...

Continue (Mother's day)

2008-05-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Uncle jus called, he's comin over wif KFC (again! my dad bought them for dinnner!) n cake n satay....i'm gonna get fatter n fatter these days.....wif all e good food grandma is feeding me, wif Crab feelin me coke.....

Oh God! help me!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!!!!

T_T....

brb soon...

Mother's day...

2008-05-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

It's Mother's day 2day n i wanna wish all mothers:

Jus take off for cookin n cleanning the hse 2day! Its YA day mums!!

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-Went over 2 Crab's hse, gave his mum a box of merci sayin frm me n her son, ( I bet Crab hasnt got his mother anything.... =.-) anyway she was veri happy n invited me 2 stay but it was 10.50am, 10 more mins to service so made up a excuse....
-Accepted Christ 2day ( God Bless!) had a wonderful feelin bout tis went 2 get nail polish for grandma ( she luv red...)
-Came hm, wanted 2 pay bills but forgot mus rmb 2 pay otherwise kana cut off e Net i'll die man....dad was hm too.
-Went out wif dad, bought a lot of food, ah ma off day for once, n e whole was sittin in e living rm 2 watch Ironman. Bad quality ...sigh.
-Noticed tat belly was kinda bigger then usual after dinner.....mus be past 2 days nv do sit ups.... =.=
-Vowed 2 do sit-ups 2nite more then usual...double of wad i do for usual, hope it would be less noticable tml....T_T
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New Find.....

2008-05-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

Yo ppl....bac again.
-went over to Crab's hse yesterday nite, bought him dinner; stayed at his hse watched 'How She Moved'; kinda cool wish secretly could be like her ( i mean her skill nt body..)
-sch kinda boring 2day watched video clips for lesson; felt asleep; then when 2 Crab's hse watch cartoon network
-came bac hm, ate dinner ( big plate of noodles sia....ah ma sure noe how 2 fatten me up... =])
-now blogging on9....

Jus 2 days ago, found out tis website www.benature.com had wonderful recipes of D.I.Y facial mask. Dyin 2 try some too....very interesting. Tml got test, on fireworks!!! Maybe nt really sure but should be ok....since got try in class.....

brb ppl...

Smoothening n Whitening

2008-05-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

heyyyy ppl,

have u ever eaten rice be4? It cant be tat u've nv eat be4 rice. Any1 who cook rice be it ya aunty or uncle, mum or dad, bro or sis, its common sense tat be4 u cook e rice u hav 2 wash it first.

Wad happen 2 e water used for washin? Save it ppl, nt tat im tryin e help e gov 2 save water, but it happens tat e water tat u used for washin ya rice has smoothenin n whitenin abilities. A good example. My auntie's maid came 2 our house wif a face full of pimples n ache. After my grandma askes her 2 wash her face wif e rice water, viola. Her face now is so much better n her ache is improving. Folks, u may choose to believe me or choose not 2 but havin tried tat myself, im really amazed at wad e elders used to keep their face pretty.

It's COMPLETELY natural n its so darn cheap. U dont nid 2 go e a beauty spa centre to do whitenin, u can do it yaself Free.Of.Charge! So guys, try it to believe it. It worked for me n my grandma n maid.

Felicia aka Felix

neew post!

2008-05-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

heyhey ppl! This is my veryyy~ first post on tis new blog of mine....(".) Erm jus wanna say tat in tis BRAND new blog of mine, im jus gonna put different things....aaaa jus wad im still thinkin though....nvm.

Anywaay, hope u ppl like it n also if u have any recipes for D.I.Y facial or any other stuff like cooking, baking etc ur welcome to post on my blog! Well....tatta folks!

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